I don’t know how much more sincerely he could have moved inside my soul. Sitting under one of the park’s pavilions, he told me everything I have always wanted to hear and he held me more tenderly than ever before. I could see it rolling out of his chest. His heart, it was all mine. My heart was racing and excited. The fire ignited and if the sun would have set any faster, the darkness would have exposed that red and golden glow from within me. But it was trapped. I needed to make certain that this wasn’t some twist of fate. I wanted to make sure I could really control my wild and drastic passion towards him this time… Slight surges of the heartache he left me with still singed the back of my mind.
I never felt so wicked watching a tear build up and roll down his cheek. I wanted to grab a hold of his face and kiss his tears away… kiss his worries away. I wasn’t leaving him. If I were to do that I would lose myself for eternity. I just wanted to get ahead to see if he’d still follow. Just to make sure… I deserved that right. We both knew that.
Was this just an excerpt of one of my dreams that happened to slip into my reality? Do sweet fantasies really come true? Is there a nightmare lurking around the corner?
And what is the appropriate way to handle this sort of situation, where someone so innocent takes a strong hold of my attention. I know everything that comes out of his mouth is pure and unedited. So willing to exceed my every need and want. So new and fresh. I have never dealt with something like this. Nothing toggling the back of my mind as a reminder to be wary…
“Wait for the boy who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of boy who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person. Wait for the boy who will be your best friend, and who will drop everything to be with you at any time no matter what the circumstances. Wait for the boy who makes you smile like no one else, and when he smiles, you know he needs you. Wait for the boy who wants to show you off to the world even when you’re in sweats and have no make-up on, but appreciates it when you get dolled up for him. And most of all wait for the boy who will put you at the center of his universe, because that’s where you belong.”—(via raindropsonredroses)